A hobby is not a second job

At my almost 32 years of age, I re-discovered the bliss of childhood by simply remembering that a hobby is not a second job.

What I mean with this is - there's no target, no performance indicator, no 'good' or 'bad' output and no need to necessarily produce something 'in time' or 'as planned'

Quite obvious, huh? Well, not for me, no no...
Sadly, maybe due to my life experience and upbringing, I had so far approached art with a similar mindset as a career or a job - in a lineal and rigid way.
And it wasn't working out. Even when I had some precious free time to devote to my projects, I felt de-motivated. Why?

I found out that the main reason was the inexplicable background belief that I had to finish every project I started in an orderly sequence before I could start the next one. Ideas and visions were accumulating and pushing to come forth, like a bad 5 pm traffic jam on my nervous system, and I was trying to hold them back (but without forgetting them) while I worked on 'the current project', against which I subconsciously rebelled.
Result: stalemate.

Until I asked myself who had told me I had to start and finish one thing before I could start another one - the answer, cultural conditioning.
The challenge - overcoming it without becoming an embodiment of purposelessness and chaos :)

I'm presently halfway through 5 projects. I feel free. I feel a bit scared too.